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7/4/2009 too warm to writeHi everyone,
don't know about you but 30 degrees C is far too warm to think, write or even walk. Right now that's what temps are overhere in the Netherlands. I love Summertime but this isn't funny anymore. Esspecially when one has to work in a building without airconditioning. I noticed that my collegues are quickly in their reactions (not the most respectful ones) and there even was a kind of short row last Friday. Sooooo..... Time to be on holidays and even better: time to get lower temps before we have to deal with a bushfire (not lit. ofcause.) See you later! 5/30/2009 Rest of the things to be done are for tomorrow...... orsoHi everyone,
Well... all that had to be done is behind me now: earned my living for the month, done my concerts for this month (we'll see next month for the rest), did do some gardening soooo........................... tomorrow and the day after tomorrow are for me! No newspapers, no television, pc nor radio. Don't know what I'm going to do and perhaps I'll do nothing execpt enjoying the day. I'll put my head somewhere beneath the sand or so. These spare moments for my self are so rare nowedays that I'll use them for myself. And I'll enjoy them every second. Sooooo ..............I wish you a lovely day and I'll hope you will be able to relax as much as I do. See you somewhere and sometime in future. love and light to you all,
 4/21/2009 timelessfilling up my time at the moment! I'm at my work but I don't have classes to teach, yet. Almost done all my work. Soooo........ Time to enjoy doing nothing. Love to do nothing now and then. Gives me lot of space to get my head empty and leave all the responsability behind me for a small little hour.
I'm not going outside although the weather is marvelous. The blossoms of the trees and grass gives me a kind of allergy. Anyway, almost time for a fortnight on vacation. Moa.... time to pay a visit to the dentist, that is: when I have the courage to go. 12/11/2008 dreamI'm in my bedroom sitting on my bed. I've lit a candle and I'm staring at it, gazing. Do I know what I'm seeing? I doubt it. Walls and floor seem to fall away. There's no ceiling, no room nor furniture. I'm feeling cold and I decide to step into the light of that flame. There's a bright light in that flame, yellow, orange, red, green, , purple and white, all those colours seems to float around me. They dance in a golden glow of warmth and happiness. I'm watching this game of sparkling in gold and silver. They seem to invite me to join them. I feel happy and I stay there for a while. I can hear a small creek splashing and birds singing their happy tunes. There are flowers, trees, bushes.....
It's time to go back. I'm closing my eyes and step calmly out f this flame. and when I open my eyes I'm back in my room with this candle on a table in front of me.
I'm relaxed again.....
with love and light, 12/10/2008 no silence?Since a couple of weeks I have a rough time to go through. A fortnight ago I had to undergo some serious surgeory. I'll be home for another week, not allowed to drive my car or doing some groceries. I have to take care of my body, my health. So I have a lot of time to think about my life, my health, my feelings. And you know: there's a lot of noice around me and more over: it's extremely bussy in my head. I can't get this precious moments of quietness, of peace and rest. I know I have to change my life drastically. I can't go on for ever the way I lived my life up to now. I'm always everywhere to work except at home. It has proven to be too much.
Now I have to take some time, whether I like it or not! Time to contemplate, to meditate, to make it quiet and peaceful around me and in me.
Take care of yourself,
with love and light to you all.....
7/17/2008 Big BreakYep, Big Break has begun. Can't tell you how glad I was when I closed the door behind me last Friday. I do love my job but only now I feel how tired I am. My body feels asif I've swallowed lead instead of bread, vegetables and fruit. I have slept as being unconsiuous. This week I started to clean up my study, my writing desk, a few cupboards etc. Ofcourse my tomcat "helped" me. Well... helped me..... made more a mess. I only hope that weather will get better: now it's raining and clouded.
Tour de France is half way now. I love to watch this show on tv. Must be because I'm Francofiel, which means that I really enjoy to travel to France, especially the south - Roussion and the Dordogne. This part of France is beautyful and still unspoiled by tourism. Little villages and small towns..... I love them. I enjoy to visit caves, musea and castles. And I like the French mentality... hahaha..... they can be arrogant, yes..... I know but it's just because of that arrogance that I like the French. It's just plain fun to watch them and understand there way of thinking and talking (I can speak a bit French, understanding is much better!)
6/28/2008 cleaning my writingdeskThe end of the schoolyear. Almost done with work for this semester. Which means: cleaning up my desk, my cupboard and my studyroom. You don't want to know how this study looks like...... nope..... no picture of this place hahaha.... 6/21/2008 New car!!!!Wow, is new car. A new (well...... new?????) better : another car that's a bit younger than the other one! I enjoy this car although I loved my old one. But 15 years for a car is pretty old! Especially when one has to drive as much as I do. I hope that this other car will take me everywhere and won't let me down, just like the old one.
See you later! 6/14/2008 drumming pupils
Last week I started to teach my pupils about Native American drumming. I told them about the importance of listinening to your own heartbeat and how to use this into practice of drumming. It was great fun to see them getting into the flow once they started together. I enjoyed it very much. Hopefully they will keep this concentration for another 3 weeks.  6/2/2008 writing somethingOkay, perhaps this time I'll be able to write a bit smoother. Somehow my pc reacts very slow when writing a blog on Spaces.live. Don't know how comes. Had fun with one of my friends who started a hyves but soon found out that he had to put energy in maintaining it. Pc still reacts very slowly as I find out by now. Or I'm typing to quickly. Although I'm not such a very fast typewriter.
Anyhow: I've past my exams at the actingstudioes so next year I'm a secondgrader. Feels good. Only two years before I've past my finals. At work I'm teaching my pupils about Native Americans, their thoughts, a little bit about their philosophy and about how they felt when the white people arrived. My pupils react well on these lessons. They love the stories about animals and are eager to learn.
I'll be a bit more often on this Space , have a lot of cleaning to do and changing. Have already removed a few items but I've some new items to add as well. Have new pictures of my cat too. You will like him, this rascal. 3/24/2008 I am still aliveHi there every one,
yep, I'm still alive and more healty than last year. Had a rough time but now I'm doing fine right now. Because of all those tests in hospital I didn't have the energy anymore to sit down and write blogs. Anyway: no cancer, and that's the most important and precious message I got. It made my life shining like the sun and the rainbow together. Now I do understand how important a good health is.
Don;t worry: I'll take care of myself, I'm listening to my body.
Well, nothing has changed since I wrote last time. To tell you the truth: far too busy with other things. I have this tomcat since last August. Believe me: he changed my life with all his naughty tricks he plays with me. But it is fun as well. Well, I'll be back one day. Don't know when that will be. Whenever I have time and space. Will be somewhere at the end of April I suppose. See you then.
Kisses en hugs to you all.
 12/28/2007 our bodyDon't worry: I'm not going to preache, nor telling you what you should do. I'm telling you about how I felt last months fearing that the problems I had with my thyriod could be cancer. Fortunately, it's not. Thank God fot that!!! Doctors told me the day before Christmas. One can't have a better Christmaspresent I suppose. But these last 4 months showed me how careful one has to be with our body. We only have one. And it works perfectly fine. That is, as long as we listen to our body. My body told me, no: commanded me to listen: eat and drink as much as I requier, take time to go to bed, when being ill, you ARE ill and don't try to be a hero by ignoring that. Go to bed in time!!! My body told me that discipline is extremely important. It's extremely difficult to get time and space to recover. In the mean time my body needed this time and space. I was exhausting my body the way we human beings are exhausting the Earth. I kept thinking that I have enough strength and power to go on forever. Now my body is telling me that I have not.
So, during these days of leisure I'm taking my time, enjoying every minute of it, watching dvd's that are talking to me since 6 months to be viewed. I'm enjoying my little tomcat who is about 4,5 months old and behaves like a very naughty child. And I appreciate my spare time more and more. I do know how important friends are for they are the very support one needs in difficult times. I'm doing my yoga and relaxing excercises. In the mean time I'm finding myself more and more. I'm going deeper and deeper into the core of myself, of who I am. It feels as if I'm finding back my child inside me again. I'm having fun and I've found the spontanious me who I used to be in my childhood. These last 4 months were hard to go through but the were needed only in order to get closer to myself and to whom I really are.
I wish you all good and happiness and a good health in 2008
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